im watching the moment of truth on tv now. it's so exciting!!

HAHA. i know that if im ever on that show.. it wouldnt be hard for me to get through to the top prize cause im such a good girl!! hhahaha right right?

anyways.. every night something ticks me off real bad.. and it's been especially so since 3 weeks ago? i really dont know how i'll do when Lestie isnt here.. but i sure hope i survive..

All i know is that in the past few weeks.. i only dont think of suicide when i'm working or with baby. thats all. Other than that.. i'm pretty much in a whole lot of pain.. mentally and emotionally.

I dont know when baby will read this post.. or if he will ever to know but i cant tell him.. cause i dont know how to say it.. and i dont want to trouble him. I mean.. he is always busy and he's got more important stuff on his mind.

I tried to tell you the other day.. about something thats been on my chest since last year.. but i only managed to tell Glenna.. the night i told her in the living room.. you fell asleep in her room. but it's alright.. i know how tired you were.

This weekend is the last weekend we are spending together before you go to thailand.. and i'm looking forward to it.. but im super duper bummed about the- i can only stay out for one night thing.

what to do what to do what to doooooo

Just me (eLiz)