Class doesnt seem so interesting. at all. i mean maybe cs lessons have never ever been interesting.

I hate the parts that she goes on and on about ways to improve service casue the bottom line is all the same.


ON and ON. is just how they go.


everyone's gone to town to dota. and im in school staring at a computer screen.


Today wasnt a very good day to begin with. i was made to wake up by my screaming mother who always thinks the worse of me. I woke up and said happy birthday mum. and i got scolded casue she thought i said 10mins please.


SELECTIVE HEARING.


oh well. then i forced myself to switch on the computer to type out my script for fridays role play. Totally not something i want to do. I'm altogether too lazy to make it a better script. but i know i have to for my grades.

I didnt get any messages in the morning except for one. yes. one. but i was happy casue your messages always make me smile. they're the best part of my morning.

then i was rushing to shower becasue before shower mum was forcing sausages down my throat. obviously i couldnt finish. it's not my fault that i cant eat. please stop forcing casue i feel like giving up already. Last night's cake made me gag but i forced myself to swallow. ALL FOR YOU MUM. to see your contented smile.

i ran out of the house and i forgot my jacket. mum threw it down for me and it landed on the grass wtf. nvm. i'll dry clean it soon. then i made me way to the bus stop. when i got your message. the one that completely broke my heart. and the wind was blowing my hair in my face and i was so pissed off with the heat and the wind.
I looked up and a BMW sped past right in front of me. ya.. if i was 2 steps faster i'd be in lala land now. maybe i shouldnt blast my ipod anymore.

I wished.. i just wanted the heat to go away. the wind to go away. your camp to go away.


whatever. i reached the bus stop and i realised i forgot my stupid bus card. and i had to walk all the way back.



DO YOU SEE HOW HORRIBLE THE FIRST PART OF MY DAY WAS.


in the bus and train i was trying to focus on playing psp and not think of everything. You have no idea how much i wanted to make myself laugh so that i could cheer you up.

anyways.. ya... in the end i guess it was all just miscomm.


but school's ok. and we're ok. and yea..



do you see how much i need you? how much i want you?





i'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
it's time i open up and let your love right through me
casue thats what you get
when you see your life through someone else's eyes
that's what you get, that's what you get




i think it's time to admit i cant survive the absence. your absence.

Just me (eLiz)