So what do i feel today?... hmmm....

i was kinda moody at meridian today. yes i admit. i was so happy to see zy chua and lp. they always give me the warmest hugs. and zy and chua were trying to cheer me up and i was just laughing about everything.

i know i should be happy. i really am very. i smiled when i saw you. i smiled when i was with you. but i knew at some point it was time to let you go. GO BACK TO CAMP.

i know im supposed to seem like it doesnt matter. im a strong independent woman. and the fact that i keep saying it to myself over and over again doesnt make things better. in fact it makes everything worse.

i nvr used to be like this you know. i could let someone go in like 2 days tops. i'd still feel the pinch but i'd have let most of it go.


haha


i probably never told you its different with you. and somehow i like the difference. i used to like the way things were. not complicated easy and i was happy.


well, all i know is that im speechless overjoyed when i see you though i try not to show it. seriously its like seeing jesus or something. You make me weak in the knees and melting on the inside. You make writing cards for fun when i hate writing cards.



after all.... it's a


ps: i love you




* double winks honey. happy first month.

Just me (eLiz)