had a really bad night. oh wells.

The huge bummer was that you werent the one who cheered me up. He was.

I came online and i saw him there. I didnt want to talk to him though i knew he was the remedy. Cause i knew it wouldnt be right to look for someone else. But i knew that you werent going to be any good.

He came to me. Is it so coincidental that each time im having a really bad and difficult time he's the first one to come running my way. Though he didnt know anything.

As much as i was there for you. It's obvious you cant be there for me. You cant even just be there even when i dont need you. I've tried. i know i have. but.. i think maybe it wont work.

He makes me smile in way you cant. You make me smile too but it's meaning isnt as deep.

Today you made me sad again.And this time i chose to let it be. You should know. i dont want to fight. I dont fight when im unhappy. i'll just leave things as they are. You want me to be awesomely happy. Happy for you?

I'll smile for you if that's what you want. casue that'll make you smile back at me.

You probably think i dont know what i want. You're right. I dont. But i know myself well enough to know that i think this isnt good.

I'll pray he makes me smile everyday. Cause it feels good to smile becasue of something that makes me happy. Instead of something else.

I was going to try this. try to make it work. Until... you totally let me down again.

You didnt only let me down. You put me down. The fact that seeing my team mate this aft made me happy becasue i didnt want to be alone with you

The fact that you didnt open the door for me.

The fact that i was the one who opened it

The fact that you didnt bother to ask if i was ok.

The fact that you just let me stand there like an idiot.

The fact that HE MADE ME SMILE WHEN YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE ME SAD.






the first haha i had tonight was with him. Not with you. i'm supposed to be happy. you're just making everything worse.


Somebody save me


or rather


Please.get him to save me.

Just me (eLiz)