dampening my spirits.

ok i dont know if it's supposed to feel this way. but.. after you said that one sentence to me. i didnt know what to say to you. i know probably i owe it to you after all i've done.

i feel so bad about what's going through my head. now i cant think with a spinning head. sometimes things look like they're going to work out fine. other times there's just his voice screaming saying dont do it. dont do it. dont do it.

People ask me that same question over and over again. i give the same answer over and over again. i dont know. i wouldnt answer him. i'd just say. meet my best friends first.

it's been ages since we've met. i need them most times. but then again. i gotta be strong and think for myself right. i cant always be leaning on them.

i guess i feel like shit now becasue things have changed. and i am not as sure as i was a month ago. although i am still over joyed to see your texts come in.

so what now?

Just me (eLiz)