The fight's over.

i guess. you guys dont know what i'm talking about.

you guys arent supposed to know. casue i didnt tell you guys. but anyways. this is for myself to feel better. i guess.

i dedicate this piece to her:


She hung in there like a brave soul. So ready to go yet so willing to stay. God's plan would remain unspoken of. No one knew what he was thinking. Everyone came together. Prayed together. Sang together. We all knew she could make it. we all believed she would make it.

Somehow. just a minute ago. she made it. she made it home. to be with him.

That may seem so irritatingly tragic.yet all i wanna do is celebrate her life. Her life of love.




Dear child,

you know so many things have happened since you've been half away. when you were lying in that bed. all i could do was worry. cry and pray. talking to you wasnt an option casue my words couldnt come out whole.

i was going to go down. but i knew you would hang in there. i just didnt realise how selfish i was not to.

today i played a match. against shss alumni. i tried to play for you. i tried to give my all. but. i really just made it worse. i felt for a moment that even to honour you in that way was so hard and i couldnt frogive myself.

at that moment i would have traded places cause i knew you can do it better. you've always done what i've done better. And now, it's time i realise that i'm on my own. you're here but not physically here and i can only tell myself i can do it.

do it for you

i wanna say sorry. for not being there at that very last moment. i should have been.

i tried to play my best. please forgive me.







anyways.. back to reality. i guess. this incident has changed me a lil. more reserved and quiet. i hope i change back and move back into society. again.

like 2 years ago. this happened. seems like just yesterday we were celebrating samuel's life. and now. we celebrate yuan xiang's life.





TO YUAN XIANG.
the best girl i've ever met.
the good friend we always had.



we love you.

Just me (eLiz)