training today wasnt all that bad. i realised that if i actually told myself i can do it. i would be able to do it. self confidence huh. but my first ball was sucky.

my sisters boyfriend picked me up to grab a bite after training. i was really quiet throughout their lovey dovey drive. i noticed a few things that may not mean a lot but if you look into it. it really is something. the way he holds her hand while he's driving. when he takes a longer route and she doesnt say a thing. when he answers the phone and she lowers the volume. when she turns to say are you ok to me he looks at her with are you ok eyes.

Whatever it is . it got me thinking about a whole load of stuff.

aaron gave me something to think about last night and i feel it really was worth thinking about.

when you pray to god for wisdom. he wouldnt give you wisdom. but he'd give you opportunities to exercise wisdom.

after he said that i really thought about everything that has happened. and i realised that i do have what i have becasue i asked for it. and maybe i have been through all that because i kept asking for wisdom.

so at the end of the day. we learn and we receive right.

it doesnt matter anymore. i'm going to stop believing in you. i'm sick of your lies. i'm moving on.

Just me (eLiz)