it's a sunday. i woke up to the sounds of have a merry little christmas.

I dont know whether to hate christmas or to love it even more. Yea sure christmas is all about the birth of christ and presents and food.. how could anyone not love it so much. but. then again. no one wants happiness to end right.

Hate christmas or love it. this is pointless.... i hate it! casue after a day.. everything goes back to normal and i have to wait another whole year. But that's also beside the point. christmas is getting bluer and bluer.

just like my birthday. i hate it. i hate it like farmers hate droughts i hate it like you hate loneliness. i hate it like people hate disasters. I JUST HATE IT.

the fact that i never had a party.. yea it made me sad.. but it didnt make me hate it. and last year. i decided that my birthdays were a cursed day. i never have fun on my birthday.

I remember as a small girl in primary school.. every birthday i'd be home. doing math at the dining table.. and at night my gift would be the cake.. at that time it was great.. i work hard for my cake. but now i think it's pretty pathetic to have to do math at a dining table for 6 hrs before i get to eat a slice of my own birthday cake

now as i grew older.. things became worse. haha. i tried to have a great day. yea well i did. i went to downtown east. spare you the details.. i hate my birthday.

i'm hanging by a thread here.. hate or love christmas.. i mean i cant hate both my birthday and christmas.. i might as well just hate dec.

this is bad. real bad. i dont know why..

COME AWAY WITH ME TONIGHT.

Just me (eLiz)