The other day. aaron said to me. the worst thing that can ever happen to your heart. is when you sit beside this person that you are really really into. love? like? whatever. and you cant have him. you cant hold his hand or steal a hug.

I told someone that a long time ago. and after i heard it. i felt his pain. becasue i said that to someone else. but the real blow came a few days ago. tues night? to be precise. omg. i felt it crush my heart. i cried myself to sleep. hahahhaa. guess i'm back to square one? all over again.

Last ngiht. i was in bed with a heavy heart. and everything that i've ever wnated and never got came into my mind. everything. my family. my friends. my work. my grades. and when i want something i go all the way. my friends know that. but like my aunt said. the harder you try.. the mre you put in. the harder the blow comes if there is no success..

i guess i didnt do much excpet from hide everything and the best time i ever had. was when we were close. when i meant something? or at least i felt i meant something. when a surprise call came in just to say something stupid to me.

all i did was hide. and run away. hahaha.. i guess that's what i have to do again. run away. i just wanna scream and shout and wave my hands around till everything leaves. i wanna scream and shout till everything leaves my head.

so here's what i like and i dont like:

likes:
i love it when you call
i love it when you wanna meet
i love it when i'm the first one you think of.
i love it that you cant make it but still made an effort out of everything
i love it when i dont have to do anything and i get a smile i dont even deserve.
i love it when you introduce me to the people that matter most to you. casue then i know i matter
i love it when you look at me and dont have to say a single word and you're not even bored.
i love it that you held her even though i was around and you held her lovingly. (i still rmb what you wore. it was the first time we saw each other)
i love the way you never let go
i love the way your hair falls even after a quick bath
i love the way you smell when you dont even spray anything
i love the way you love to love
i love the way you talk to me about your eye candy

even though you do things that kill me. i' happy to be around you. even just as a friend. i'm happy to see you and have you by my side. because you're one of the few whole can make me smile from ear to ear even without saying a thing and just smiling at me from a distance.

my dislikes are simple:
when they take advantage of you and you feel helpless.(though you always seem to come back to me)


This i say to you. cause i'm moving on and you're a priceless painting in my gallery.

Just me (eLiz)