today at work it started rather slow. There was this really weird lady so just pushed a bunch of clothes into my hands and left. i was like huh??!!

Was super tired when everything started. Melvin was in and i was sorta in a foul mood cause i had to stand at the entrance to greet some animals walking in with realy flexible eyes that dart from the entrance to you and at lightyear speed away from you. Not even smiling they walk walk walk then see see see then walk walk walk out the door. wah seh. then i still have to say thank you see you again. after like 5 mins it became thank you. then another 5 mins. Thanks.. another 5 mins. what the hell. bye. after that i couldnt even be bothered to stand there. looked at my nails.. tied my hair.. dance with my colleagues.

Then NAD had to leave. 1 dancing colleague gone.. but he was super nice.. he came all the way into the locker room to say bye to me. stupid rugby boy! leave me there to suffer while you go training!

Then it was just me lenny melvin and edmund.The super silent edmund. i think he's not silent.. just in front of me. it took him like 4 days to look at me and smile. omg!

Then i was thinking about some stuff and it came down to me being very tired, mind started wandering off and boom there i was thinking about everything again.

Isnt it funny how the people you want you cant get but the people you want you can get?!!argh! hahha.. and my friends were talking about how hot guys end up with disgusting 'females' who stick like sharp combs in their wallets and wave them around? saying? "fight AR" like wth does that mean. more like scratch ar! and the pretty girls end up with the fringe maniacs..

Dam GROSS.

Anyway so yea.. then my ex boyfriend called me yesterday on the way to work. As usual my sarcastic tone. oh ya. you still in sec school. wahahha! i didnt mean it of course but i was trying to piss him off the way he pissed me off. Then again what can i say i've become insensitive towards him and totally do not give a dam about what happens to him. So now.. his msn nick is "now i know i got dumped cause i'm a FUCKING school kid"

like DUH!! vulgarities are s last century. only people of the last century era use it blatantly without even thinking of it's meaning and how it fits into the sentence? well anyway i'm so past that. he's just pissing me off indirectly. he wants to right. but after a while what for? lame shit. it's time to grow up and out of that childish mentality and think about others before you think about yourself.

Then i checked my friendster inbox and found " i dont understand how everything turned out this way" it was from someone else. like use your brains. i told you. i'm past the hurdles of listening to everyones crap and taking in everything that you wanna let out. the skeleton left there for you to vent everything out on. i'm obviously not the one for you cause you dont even understand what i say and i have notimeto explain to you i dont want to be doing thast for the eternity that i'm going to be with you or what ever time span seeming to be eternity. and my expectations are set i'm going all out for waht i want no time to waste. it's time you found what you want and go for it. Dont dwell it really wont help you. Know what's good for your future. i'm saying this as a true friend.

There're a lot of things to say but let's just keep it to that before i slam my laptop on the floor or something. got to sleep soon. meeting my friend early in the morning!! hahahahaha so exciting.

i'm way past all you stinking boys. it's time for fresh ones that can make me smile and make me feel good even without saying a word.

Just me (eLiz)