Well today was supposed to be a great day cause it was my last paper and all. It was disasterous! I totally didnt know what to write on that stupid crappy piece of paper. Everything i studied for that 10 hrs straight went down the drain when it all came out in one question. Like what kinda goon cramps like 6 topics into 1 question!

Anyway the highlight was me and samantha running off half way to take like pictures and do stupid things in the toilet. hahaa!!!! Crap larh. GPA4 GONE!

So i was looking forward to my vb night. And a thurs full of vb too. BUT.... It was cancelled.. Dream for today-FLUSHED DOWN THE TOILET.

Came back went running for ten mins. like 2k around my place and some other terraces and then back.. Short run. Took soo long to run that 2k. crap. physic-gone case

Then some guy mad me really sad cause he said something to me that totally wasnt the case and how could he just do that. but i guess somehow i deserve it cause i tried my best for... nothing?or i wasnt being too straight forward cause i didnt wanna demoralise/hurt anyone?? anyway. then my buddy zhibin tried to cheer me up and kept drawing on msn with me. And my PRI/SEC school friends were like cheering me up too. Along with hao ming and Ivan. Thanks you guys!! YA'LL rock my SOCKS!!

Then that someone tried to challenge?? me by saying let's see how you treat an old friend. like how could he? hasnt he realised anything? or though for other's but himself? i'm not saying he hasnt but he doesnt see what people do on their part?.. but he compared himself to my long time friends. then i tried to emphasize that old buddies were like 10 years in the run of being friends or more than 4 years. Holy COW..if he counts himself as an old friend? For another? Perhaps?..

Well i dont know.. i'm really confused as you can tell and i really can be handling this again. Seriously. It's exactly the same feelings and Same situation. Maybe not as bad as the last one but.. OH MAN. This is really bad. We're just friends and this is happening. Somehow when i say one thing people seem to understand. Or claim they understand??.. but truth is it's quite obvious they dont from their response and all. It's INFURIATING. and i feel like just totally vanishing now. My space in air. leave? Evacuate. ANYTHING. it's like hello. I'm supposed to be high soul searching for a while. Dont you understand. nO I TAKE BACK DONT YOU UNDERSTAND. cause people are just going to CLAIM again.

I dont know i really dont. You try to pick yourself up for someone only to be pushed back down and emotionally traumatised and pushed back to be scum of the earth again? Chiminology? no. It's just you CLAIM you understand again. No point checking the dictionary. It only means something to those who share MY dictionary.

How now BROWN COW

Just me (eLiz)