Wow. *sarcastically* national day is here. It's not going very well. First of all i'm moodless because last national day was a beautiful day, i was supposed to go study but my friends brought me to watch fireworks. The first time in my life i ever saw fireworks. I remember very clearly that day, Fireworks from italy, the night sky full of smoke and stars. Perfect isnt it.

Well the moodless-ness began last night. I stayed up to do my one last project PRINCIPLES OF MANAGEMENT!! i have had 6 projects in the last few weeks. HOLY COW!!! i still have to study for exams. But i was so excited to finish my project and think what to do the next day. MAYBE go to Siloso with alliance and play my best?? or out with my beach friends i miss!! ZUO XIN AND LESTER.. *i miss em*.. already..

Then i talked to my parents about joining a volleyball club, YEW TEE CSC. i mean i finally am so close again, without their support. Last year it was combined school without their support. This year it's beach and club and nyp without their support. I mean every week in nyp after training, i have to listen to all their crap nagging me about the late nights. i mean come on!! i only train in nyp for at least 7 hours every week. That's peanuts plus it's split into two different days. sooo not learning much and my skills are deteriorating at such a fast rate. I AM STUDYING MY ASS OFF. What do i do before training?? study. What do i do when i get home?? study. ok i admit with my msn on.. but who doesnt?? you'd die without having people make you laugh when you're slogging your ass off right. What do i do on saturdays? i go to st hildas for trg, to try to make myself feel better bout my rapidly deteriorating skills and then STUDY. sunday=study after church.

Only recently i've picked up beach and it's really good. Trains your skills and basics. like seriously. esp my f-fing spiking that is soooooo crappy i feel dam embarrassed now whenever i go out to play ball becasue i am not even half of who i was in st hildas and my coach says i didnt put my best in in shss. Dam pissed off eh.

Study my ass off supposed to be = can go anywhere you like, enjoy yourself, you're too tense

Just me (eLiz)