so it has been about a month since i broke up with him.. i suddenly have lots of time on my hands and somehow it's good and somehow it's bad. I get to spend more time with my friends and time for studies and volleyball. but do you ever get the feeling of emptiness. there's like a huge hole inside of you.

If you know me, you'd know that he hurt me real bad and it's been hard to get over the things that he did. Sometimes i wonder, if i was not good enough or i was not doing something right.

Well that's all the past guess all i can do right now is look forward to the future right. But how do you do it when you dont know whether you can ever love again or if you dont know if you'll be ok.

i'm sitting here at my spot in school. No one knows this spot where i always go. Beautiful scenery..lot's of time to reflect. Yes i have been thinking a lot lately and it's more of a what am i going to do from here on. I feel alone sometimes. Most of the time. When do i go from here?

I guess it's hard to pick up the pieces even though you are the one who left, you are also the one who got hurt. You're the one who was abused in the relationship and yet people look at you and say i cant believe it happened to YOU of all people. I guess when you're gone the pieces of my heart and missing too.

-I just dont love you no more-

Just me (eLiz)