another post for today. i just had a chat with 'damien' and here itis. i mean. i can never ever have a good day the way i look at it. it took me 1 months plus to eat again after i left him. and after everything i guess depression was me not him? he was busy partying all night with my cash and having the time of his life with many girls around him. i dont really care anymore. doesnt mean anything to me. well read it and dont laugh out loud near the ending.

i nearly did.


i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
heys. going to shs on fri?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
you really hate me then why tlak to me
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
why will you think that i hate you?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
casue i've so mean to you.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
it's like totally emotionless towards you
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
and i keep like critising you
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
right. i really hate you for that. but i ask you. if you really dont feel for me anymore then why keep my house keys?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
casue i cant throw them away
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
they're your house keys i mean i am human..
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i'm not some dont think b4 doing kinda person
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i really wanna treat you as a friend but i want you to know that you really hurt me
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
big time.
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
then why dont return? why tell me you wanna keep it as momento?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
and no matter what i do.. it still hurts ok
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
that's why i'll nvr be with you again
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i'm not so stupid to play with fire a second time.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
it's like you ripped out my heart stomped on it and put it back thinking you wouldnt have hurt me. if no one told me.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but then it hurts really hurts.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
and you'll nvr know what it feels like.
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
i know i've hurt you badly. and ppl have been telling me to move on. and im trying!
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i may have hurt you by being a bitch to you. and dumping you.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but you'll nvr feel how i feel.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
it's not about you moving right now.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
we're not talking about that
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
see right now.. it's still all about you
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i'm tlaking about me now
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
ME
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
can i have a min to tell you about ME
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
can i tell you something that i've never wanted you to know?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
you may think you know everything about me
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but you dont know ME
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
and everything. cause it's always been about YOU
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
the ME you made me and the ME i was are very different
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but you nvr realissed anythinmg
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
then you went and did that behind.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
it may not be a big deal..
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
really it's not big deal waht you did.
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
i know i had been selfish. yes. i was..
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but after all that i put myself through
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
that's what hurts the most.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
it hurts that you cheated..
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
it does
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but it only hurts so much becasue of how much i was doing and how much i had pulled thorugh
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
after all that
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
like i draw you a picture.
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
can we talk over the phone?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
we'reclimbing a rope together and i climb for 2 years. only to find out you took an escalator 1.5 years
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
no we cant
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i have no time to talk to you. no strength to talk to you.no spirit to even see you
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
its easier to express ourselves.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i have nothing to express
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
that's just what i wanted to let you know
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i used to view you as my world. and my special someone.
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
ok then. but can i tell you something that i've never wanted you to know?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
and i used to think that i wanted to risk everything i had just to be with you
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
but after all i gaave.. hahahaha
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i'm glad it didnt happen and right now you're not even an ant to me. you'renot even an island.. you're not even someone i wanna be in the same bus as
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
say it
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
say what you wanna say
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i would love to hear jsut another sentence of wshat you've always said
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
i have always wanted to tell you that i've been suffering from depression all along. the psychaitrist told me that i was suffering from it since pri 4. well. forget it. you wouldnt wanna know and you wouldnt care anyways. hahs. you'll laugh at it instead! haha. aint i right?
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i'm not laughing
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
neither am i crying
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
i'm like oh.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
is it?
i know i got dump cause i'm a FUCKING SCHOOL KID!! says:
well. i dont have anything to say anymore. bye.
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
take care of yourself then
- Liz - SMILE IT'S REALLY BEAUTFUL AARGH!!!! Simple girl. Simple wants says:
bye

Just me (eLiz)