Being surrounded by death and sickness isnt a very funny thing. It gives you a sort of reminder that there is pain and suffering in the world.


If there's anything i've learnt in the past few weeks of dad's mum's death and mum's mum's sickness it's about how we live our lives.

Baby said the other day that thinking about everything in his life, he's lived life.

Well i havent.

I used to say if i die tomorrow everyone will have to celebrate my life. And then now i think about it. What's there to celebrate?

I havent had the fun i wanted to have.
I havent done what i've truely enjoyed doing.
I havent been angry enough at the people who have done me wrong.
I havent spent time with so many friends that are overseas.
I havent played my favourite sport in forever.
I havent learnt what i wanted to learn.
I havent laughed enough.

So maybe making a list of the things you want to accomplish isnt so lame after all.

MAYBE WE SHOULD ALL MAKE A BUCKET LIST.
a list of things to do before we kick the bucket.

i know for sure i want to:

ride a bicycle
go for a bike ride
Race
ice skate over and over again
dance in the middle of the road at night
have a picnic in the pastures of new zealand
Paint my own house
Drive an expensive car
Stay in fullerton for a night
Slow dance in the rain
be a wild girl for a week
party hardcore
play paintball


maybe.


besame mucho my love.
we only live once.

Just me (eLiz)