i was just looking at my msn nickname. wanting to change the sub nick.haha.

firemen are so hot.. where did that come from!

anyways.. then i was just thinking.. how is it some people are able to hide what they are feeling so well?

is it because they talk to their teddys secretly? or they just feel happier the way they are.

Am i right to say that there is power in loving? or is it merely something we've all heard somewhere before from hollywood and chosen to believe in case we never get what we truely want. is it just a facade of whatever we can use to shadow us from the truth of this cruel world.

or is it some reality we all lost sight of.

we all heard wong li lin's phrase. it's better to have loved and to lost than to have never loved at all.

one word




BULLSHIT.

we were at the beach talking about lots of stuff. love being one of the main topics.

isnt it better to have never loved at all. than to have experienced it and not be able to feel it again? but long for it so much that you cant keep track of what exactly it is you want. you just cant remember

nazarath agreed with me on this one.




i'm pretty sure.. she's not the only one.



when we step into it. we know. there's no turning back. at that point we have sold our sold. argh!!! that sucks. but isnt it the truth. we have people cheating on people. people who have 5 wives. people who cant keep their eyes of other girls while hugging their girlfriends on escalators.


dispicable.


and here we're talking about better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...




if you know what i mean. you'd understand this. after you've lost. it's not exactly easy to love or even like for that matter. it's not some random he's hot anymore. we read deeper. we want more.

has this want become longing to obsession.


how is it. someone who hardly cares can mean the world to you. hurt you hold your heart and squeeze it at the same time. all without knowing.


are these all just actions of modern day men who cant think or feel for the words in which they speak or leave the very lips.


love and to cherish for eternity. then how is it we get people who say it isnt the same as it was before. more than ten people have told me this about their relationship in the past year. one more tonight.

IN THE PAST YEAR PEOPLE.




it's sad what the world has become. the lies the facades. the shamelessness. all that? for what? for pleasure?



hurt someone's feelings for pleasure? and you dont even know the consequences of your actions or words.


girls are hard to understand i get that. but you should know something guys... guys arent any better. so stop judging your gfs and start understanding we were made different.



as for you. it was different. it started in april. but.. truth is.. i try not to care anymore. cause you dont know what you've done. sometimes i wish i could make it go away as you fade from my memories. but sometimes it just hurts more and forgetting doesnt help.


as much as i dont want to give my heart away.. you're prob the one person i could give it to if you would show me who you really are.


same goes for life.

Just me (eLiz)