yesterday was valentines day.

happy valentines day all. =))

i went to smack some balls last night.. lost a lil bit of touch. halfway playing. i must say my spirit fell. not just cause of the playing. it was mainly my mind on other things. i kept really quiet which is not really my style on court with alliance.

anyways. before that i was at century square with jody. she was working for her old florist store.. saw loadsa guys buying loadsa flowers and bears for girls. haha. so secondary school.

Let's see what i did on val day in my life so far.

well pri school there's the what the hell is val day kinda thing going on.
sec school: sec 1 - exchanging gifts with friends all over school
sec 2 - exchanging gifts with friends all over school
sec 3 - exchanging gifts with friends all over school plus training
sec 4 - exchanging gifts with friends all over school plus training.

haha.. and this year well i spent it doing productive things.

well meeting jody made me smile really cause omg.. she's the first thing i look at besides my books past few days. torture larh exams. but who cares.. it was still great..

her friend came to pick us up and drive us over to spans. the car was full of mad aura. seriously. everyone was laughing screaming and laughing some more. and i was listening to dance floor anthem, take you there and low.

there was this guy who started talking and i sorta took out one side of my ear phones to listen in. the usual stuff i'm not very interested in...... HIS R/S WITH A GIRL.

I hate to break it to you but. SHE DONT LOVE YOU KIDDO. i mean it was a basic thing of not knowing what you want. And so i said to him. why get so sad and worked up talking bout things like this. isnt it pretty obvious she's too thin up there to realise what she actually wants.

she's like wasting your time and her time. blah blah blah.

anyways.. isnt it stupid. like whining and 'crying' over spilt milk. anyways i believe he's going to move on. cause he told her that they should just be friends. May not be the same.. but at least they could save that part of the relatonship.

So after training. we went to jody's friends house. we were supposed to eat.. but then her pal had to pray. so.... we went there to slack first.

HIS HOUSE IS RIGHT BESIDE MY FRIEND'S HOUSE hahahahaa!!!

so i called my friend and we went to take a walk.. his usual smoke walk. basically he's supposed to be friends with my ex bf. but they fell out when we were still together. over the most lame controversial things.

so we were at this corner an he was smoking and he was just talking about relationships. his and mine.. here's how the convo went.

ben: so hows you and your bf
me: what bf?
ben: no bf now???????
me: no why?? cannot is it. haha
ben: nono.. i'm just surprised that's all
me: why surprised. nth to be surprised about what!
ben: nono.. i mean like no body ask you meh
me: no. hahahaha.. i'm focusing on my studies for the moment want to get my life on track
ben: what's so bad about your life?
me: nothing just want to get my grades and career establshed first. no hurry for a relationship
ben: never thought of getting back with him??
me: NOPE. dont ever want to relive that part of my past.
ben: cant be that bad what. he's quite romantic.
me: HAHA!! romantic my ass. please.
ben: hahaha really what. that bad huh
me: yea! haha


it went on for a while more. but.. the convo is getting boring. haha! anyways... he really got me thinking about stuff. like past present and future. hmmm

basically what i'm saying in this whole convo is.. why do people dwell in the things they do not want. it cant be human nature can it? are we so genetically designed to be that foolish.

somewhat. cant people see that they deserve better. sure they can. i can tell you that for a fact. casue i felt it in my relationship.

i was watching grey's anatomy the other day. an honourable man is one who knows what he deserves and knows that it's not enough and leaves when it's not enough.

a strong woman is one who knows how to get back on her feet and rise again.. taking it as a learning experience and knwoing when to put her foot down.

"what defines us is not what we do but how well we rise after we fall"
Maid In Manhattan

You’ll try everything you never thought would work before
When you live, when you love, and you give them your all
You can always give up some more
Baby nothing means anything unless you’re here to share with me
I can breathe, I can bleed, I can die in my sleep
Cause you’re always there in my dreams

Just me (eLiz)