who do you know who to trust and who not to? i asked gab earlier.

he just said you cant really tell. you've got to go with a gut feeling.

confusion. Frustration. and i'm drained.

No i'm serious. whoever you are. you win ok. i dont have anymore strength to fight you. say what you want to say. Do what you want to do.

i heard some crap about someone gossiping about someone else. and i just stood there and thought to myself... the things people do to make themselves feel better.

Somehow i dont know why. i didnt play well in training. i just so drained. i felt like i was a laughing stock. i felt like i was not made to do what i do. no matter how hard i try. my efforts are just a joke.

But then the team pulled my hand when i squatted down. they pulled me up saying you can do this. we'll get through it togehter.

It was probably something god was trying to tell me. I didnt have my snap today. i didnt have my timing. but something i did have were the good people around me. my team.

If i could take that situation and put in real life. then maybe we'd look at the brightside of things. maybe life could be better.

Then we gotta seperate good from bad right. GOOD BAD.

Two seperate entities.

Enough of that shit mind my language but those people can go fuck themselves cause their lives are so boring.


OH OH OH. I LEARNT SOMETHING NEW TODAY.


hahhaa HAYDEN. said that marilyn manson took out some of his ribs. for.....?? go figure. hahahahahaha

Just me (eLiz)