Have you ever wondered why bad things happen to good people? Or you'd probably start thinking. am i considered to be in the ''good people'' range.

I wonder when life is going to change.. i wonder how it's going to change.

Why things happen i dont know. Church says.. be thankful for what has happened.. for it could have been worse.. thankful.. i've had my share of that.. i've been thankful that i get bad experiences. but when it happens to the people around me. your world collapses. Why them?

It comes a point where you just feel you'd rather have everything bad happen to you instead of the people around you. at least the people you care most about will be happy. Then you can smile and say it was worth it.

But there comes a time where you cant decipher what some higher power is doing with your life.. wasting it. hardships.. And you start taking on the sadness and hardships that the people around you should be getting but instead you get it casue it's what you asked for.

now you say.. why? when something is in front of me and so near yet so far. When it's a hand reach away yet seems impossible to feel.. when it's a foot away and you just cant seem to see.. Some experiences so sour and bitter but yet so sweet.

after all that's said and done.. you cant do anything. you forget. or at least try to forget. and move on. or try to move on.

The memories fade... anyway youth shant be wasted on out-of-reach stuff.

They come back and you're lost. you dont know your next move. you dream. dream that it's all a dream. a dream that you wake out of. but truth is. waking up IS the dream. the dream we've all been waiting for.

Just me (eLiz)