long time since i last blogged. cause there was nth much to talk about. but yesterday guess who came to look for me.

YL.

wahahaa.. anyway i waskinda happy. not cause he was there. but cause i saw jonas and teri. omg. the two hadsome dudes. hahaha. seriously COMPARE.wahhahaha.. jkjk. anyway was good to see them again after so long. but when i saw them i immediately knew he was outside. goodness. i was on my way out to get water. tried to act normal. then went back into the shop hid at the counter and said omg omg omg. then started hyper ventilating. shit.

SMS:
yl: i swear you are seriously doing the right things to make me pissed off. Where are you now. me: oh so you're pissed off and i'm supposed to care? when we were together i was pissed of but no one cared. least of all YOU.
yl:i did care. just that i didnt show it.(like what shit right)
yl:So where are you now?
yl:Are those your colleagues?(i didnt ans)

SUDDENLY.. CALL.....

yl:you with your colleague ar?
me: why you jeaous?
yl: no lar.. just want to know lor.
me: ya then?anyway i wanna eat now bye
yl: ok bye

SMS
yl: anyway you asked if i'm jealous not at all. i'm not. why should i be? you also not mine already. I only scaredsomeone jealous cause i come find you
me: WAHAHAHHAHA!! ppl jealous cause you come find me? please ppl wont be jealous. they know i'm smart enough not to be with someone who hurt me all over again. esp YOU
yl:LOLs i think you didnt get me. Like hello? i have to pick her up. that's why i asked if you want me to pick you up la you think you so wannable ar. you so buay pai seh sia.next time got chance i intro her to you k? you should know her one lar.
me: wahahha.dont need to intorduce lar. later we fight (OBVIOUSLY SARCASTIC)
yl:she wanted to comesee you but i scared you two fight. of course i found someone new lar you think you make me give you up no use one meh? lols.
me: hahaha.. dont worry wont fight. i wont fight with her. fighting for small kids. please. good you found yoursself a new love. bye
yl:haha. eh cant text you already with her on the bus. she complaining about me smsing. haha ayou take care. she scodling already bye.

WAHHAHAHA. first of all you think i give a dam about you having a new girlfriend. or what ever sex slave you have? i'm just glad that i gave you up so that i dont have to be the innocent wife staying home waiting for her fucking husband.(yes if you look at it. there are meanings to it.) I told you before that i used to view you as shss star player. smart ass psle prelim scorer. but then again. all you are now to me is not even an ant. i'm not pissed. i'm happy you found some one else to share your what you call since-childhood-depression. and you can even tell your mom who wants you to date me cause i treated you so nice. that i'm not coming back to you becasue i dont want to have a fuck-around-boyfriend anymore?

Well yes i used to be ok with everything. hey i lvoed you so much if you hadtold me? i would have forgiven you and still be with you. held your hand. wait for you to wake up. Give you gifts for no reason. CAB to your house and watch you sleep or else you'd get angry i'm not around when you wake up. yea i'm done being that girl man. you can still sleep in till 5pm tired cause you spent the night fucking around. but i wont be there. Smile to yourself casue of the many families you ahve outside. WAHHAHAH. but dont even think back and say iw ant her back becasue it's false hope. dreaming. and dreaming nvr come true. Ask yourself how much i sacrificed for you? i gave up a social life for you. My best friends. My closest friends. ALL FOR YOU. only to find out you didnt even need me? what you needed a good image? in front of all your friends who apparently aremore HANDSOME that you? wahhaha.. please. i used to think that you were all that. now you're SAI.

wahhahaa. i'm not pissed though i may sound like it. and thoguh you dont know this blog add. i'm saying this in my heart to your face. becasue i dont wanna trash you in your face and own your dumb ass. i'm merely doing this to make myself feel better after wasting like almost 3 years of my life on you. i'm now assured that you dont mean anything to me. you are no longer the guy i saw at p5 em1. smart. tall dark and handsome. now you're a fisherman village going- young male drunked. who sleeps around. =) just to let you know who you are. you ought to know you should be ashamed of yourself. it's time to wake up sweetie. you're no longer 12 you're a 17 year old. it's time you found yourself and someone who can rely on you and vice versa.

The day i thought i'd never get through i got over you. i found myself. right now. and i know it's no longer the same person i was. i have emerged stronger and wiser thanks to your bullshit. and you're never going to bring me down no matter how many girls to tell me about in your messages casue all i'll be thinking about is your sorry ass and how you could have been so much more. but you just blame it on your since chilhood depression. i'm a girl with a broken heart. but no matter what you'll never see me cry. i'm fixing back the pieces cause i'm so over you and you're not even worth it.GOODBYE to you.

Just me (eLiz)