People change?
Dont know what to feel, dont know what to think.

Just want to be the way we are. You and me, we were made to with stand the world remember.

Come back to me

Ive been so happy with you. Happiest ive ever know myself to be. And the worst part about it was that you were happy too.

Maybe after awhile, you forgot the reasons why you were always happy was because i was there to pick you up. I was there to cheer you on. I was there to give you treats that i knew would lift up your spirits.

The worst thing about last night, was that i didnt get a chance to tell you i loved you on the 11th. It is truely a really special day in my heart. But why do you always pick fights when you dont have a clear mind.

Everytime your friends ask me how many times ive carried you home, you have no idea how happy i am to hear that. Because i willingly do it, bring you home and drag your ass from the car.

I need you to be the one whos there for me. I need you to be the one who cares for me. I need you to be the one who bothers to be with me even when we are extremerly bored. I have been everything i can to you, so why cant you put yourself aside and put me in your mind.

I used to go to your fb and look at our photos cause you would always wanna upload them no matter how long it took. But now, theres just an empty space and you just really couldnt be bothered. Maybe you didnt know that all this while, even though you gave me such a hard time, you were the one i found peace in, strength in, i found that i wanted to spend my life with you.

Idk. Would we ever be awesome again? Would we ever be we again. Im willing to work on it with you. Even though you might be the one who needs to work on yourself more. Would you bother?

it's like rainbows, then a downward spiral.

i just want to be happy.

6 months later i'm here again.

It's almost as if the days have flown by. It's been a year since we've been together. I have to say that each time i look at you, i still look at you the way i did exactly a year ago.

Innocent love.

But i wouldnt be wrong if i said that you were slipping. Slipping as though you know these days would never end. Slipping as though i've taken everything away from you.

i have no qualms about the person you are.. the only thing i have qualms about is you not being who you are.. unless the person you are, isnt the person i fell in love with.

and i know, thats not true. you are the man i fell in love with, and the man i choose to be with. i need you to show me i wasnt wrong.

Vulnerable, fragile, elated.

I'm in love.

so glad you're here ->♥

OIt's almost as though we have all the time in the world, we've got nothing to fear. But then we have ourselves to fear. We tried so hard to make it this far. Or maybe we didn't try as hard as we could have.

You know, we could destroy it all? I know people find reasons not to change, cause no body does. But people find reasons to better themselves. All because they know if they don't, they could lose everything.

Tonight though, I find myself stopping from becoming someone better for you. You said it's exhausting figuring me out. Well it really is more exhausting being the best for you without you seeing it.

And tonight, I remind myself that my strength is for me and me alone. I need me to be strong for no one else but me.

And to all the girls out there in love, don't forget to be strong for you.

its been such a long time since my last post, Havent really had the time to get here or to anywhere really.

have you ever felt unappreciated or questioned and in a position you never really knew how you got to or how to get out of.

well i guess i'm there now. and i really dont know how i got here.
it'sjust how i feel, that i've spent so much of our time together fitting into his life that maybe i forgot a little bit about mine. but then again..was there ever a real life i had?

i've been trying so hard to give him something he wants so much but at the same time i feel that the kind of love he needs is the kind of love i cant give and only she can give. even if he hated it.. i mean.. it made him feel loved didnt it.

he says he doesnt feel i love him. but has he ever though that maybe he was more ready than i was to love again? and now i have to tell him to just stop stressing and free fall but he doesnt listen. so does this mean that i dont listen to him and he doesnt listen to me? or that im way in over my head here and im not the one who can give him what he wants.

she used to love you so much she'd go paranoid. she used to love you so much she wanted to be all around you. she used to love you so much that she never gave you the space you needed.

i love you so much i trust you. i love you so much i let you have time for yourself. i love you so much i give you your space.

and yet all im doing, which is also all you said you needed, is what isnt enough for this relationship.

sometimes i wonder if you think of her more than you think of me. trust me.. i have been loving you.. more than you know.. and it hurts the fuck out of me

Just me (eLiz)